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Last night I decided that I wanted to start working out in the morning when I get up because it seems that I am soo exhausted when I get in at night that I don’t want to do anything but go to bed.  I decided to share with my buddy (you know who you are) about my plans.  The only thing I decided that it would be better to start next week instead of this week because I have been feeling run down and fighting a cold.  I am also going on vacation next week and I felt that if I start my routine now it going to be hard to restart when I get back.  I know I am making alot of excuses but that how I truly feel.  I strongly feel like if I start now I am going find a way to give up later.  Instead of taking the advice of my buddy I snapped which was not cool because I know she is only trying to help me out.  I am trying my hardest to get the same motivation she has with trying to lose weight but I just can’t seem to get on the same page.  ANY SUGGESTIONS……

Today I got weighed and I gained the 3lbs I lost last week. I am disappointed in myself because this is how it always happen.  When I get the urged to do the right thing something always happen.  I feel like dammm it just easier just to say forget it and accept that I can not do this. I know I sound like a broken record but this seems like the only song I know.  I really tried this week but I have notice that I started snacking in between meals and I guess it caught up with me.  I think I am just going to have a good cry and pick up the pieces. But I know this is suppose to be a challenge but I can’t seem to catch a break. It seems like every time I lose a pound I gain 2lbs I just don’t get it.  I am stress out with trying to do my final for school and it seem like I am turning to food for release.  Dammm I am really piss at myself right now but I feel like I am setting myself up for failure. Well thanks for reading and it felt good to vent hopefully next week will be different.

I am glad Friday is finally here because I tried my hardest to eat all the right foods.  One thing I notice lately is that I have been snacking in between meals I know this is going to have to change.  So I am setting a new goal for myself to try to reduce my snacking or change it to something healthier.  I am scheduled to be weighed tomorrow morning so hopefully everything is going to be good. But other than that it is Friday and I am ready to continue to move forward.  Hey Jac… thanks for the support sometimes I don’t know what to do but you are always there to put be back on track. Love ya back sista from another mother

I have been struggling with my weight for many years. It seems like everytime I start trying to lose weight something seems to always come up to make me stop. Well I realize that this time is going to be different.  Now I know that I have said this to myself over a hundred times but this time is different I realize that I have to put just as much effort into losing weight as I do into my family, school and work. Today was a challenge for me because I usually do not go out for lunch but I did and I thought about all the great foods I could get while I was out (rita’s water ice) but then I remember that this time is different so instead of eating something bad I did what I went out to do and returned to work to eat my packed lunch.